From a Mother's Heart, with Love

The thumb.

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All this kid needs is a sleep sack and his thumb.

A mild obsession.

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Something about trucks, loud crashing and the smell of exhaust reels these boys in. The beaming smile melts my heart. Wonder what they are getting for Christmas?

A lot to be thankful for!

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This year we have so much to be thankful for~ health, a thriving and giggling new baby, moving into our home and family. We were lucky enough that Matt's parents agreed to come for a visit and help us celebrate.

A train ride is a must!

Decking the Christmas tree.

Pax and sweet Baby James.

Grams and Pax tried their first Smore.

Grams and I cooked up a mean Thanksgiving dinner. Everyone participated in a cookie decorating contest and Minute To Win It game. The ten days went by too fast. Our hearts are full of love and are cheeks hurt from all of the laughs.

Home is wherever I'm with you.

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I have been meaning to post about our new home forevah. It always seems to slip through the cracks so now, seven months into it all, it just feels like home, our home. Somewhere we can watch our children grow, sip tea watching the sunset over the mountains, build snowmen, hike the hills and laugh.

It was just about this time last year when I found it. Matt thought I was casually looking at houses to get a feel for the area, and I did not look twice when our realtor sent me over the listing. I picked out two other homes to tour and she suggested I see this one. It was a foreclosure and was in less than desirable condition. I walked in and loved it, well most of it. On a cul-de-sac, close to the trails, in the valley, not too old, not too new, open floor plan, cute street name, not renovated. I fell in love. BUT it smelled of something nasty, the dog that lived there had scratched through doors and baseboards, the children had used the walls as an art canvas, there were holes in the walls, projects unfinished throughout the house, dead landscaping, no sod, you get the idea. There was some work to be done.

I brought Matt over a few days later and he says something along the lines of, "Seriously, this is it. I like it but no way." I begged, we put in an offer. He still was on the fence. The bank did not accept. After four months and lots of negotiating the house was ours. We renovated for about 6 weeks and moved in. Friends of friends at Possiblities Home Decor helped with some decorating, picked out paint and fabrics- it all came together and now, I can't imagine living anywhere else. Best of all are the sweet little faces that jump off the couch, ram their cars into the cabinets and throw army guys named, Kramer and Jerry, over the balcony.

Before Pictures

(should have taken more of these guys)

The living room.

Wall with the fireplace.

Nook and dining area.

Master bedroom.

After Pictures

Living room.

Fireplace wall.

Nook and dining area.

Kitchen.

Reading room.

Dining room.

Master bedroom.

The big boy room.

Nursery.

Guest bedroom.

Backyard.

Lessons I learned after this moving experience:

1. I LOVE decorating but renovating is just not my thing.

2. Light can change everything. We get lots of sun and wow, I likey.

3. No matter how thorough you are, unexpected problems always arise so just go with the flow.

Really, they do.

4. Make a budget, stick to it.

5. Moving 6 times in 7 years is too much for me. Matt and I have questioned our decisions, disagreed, heard each other out, compromised, and did the best we could.

We are here for good, I hope. In the end, "Home is wherever I'm with you."

~ Edward Sharpe and The Magnetic Zeros.

Boo

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This morning Luke woke up asking, "How many more days until we trick or treat again?" I think he enjoyed himself.

James as a mariachi singer and donning his cute, "Who's got treats" outfit. The look is priceless, as if someone said, "Boo!"

The festivities!

The pterodactyl and an astronaut.

Happy baby pose.

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Easy going, laid back and full of smiles. Baby James is one happy boy!

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Farmer Kenny.

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A few months back we started getting raw milk from a local farm. It is pretty much straight from the cow, not homogenized or pasteurized. In Colorado, it is illegal to purchase raw milk so you have to buy a portion of a cow and then you have rights to the milk it produces.

So, the kiddos and I set out to Johnson Farms and met Farmer Kenny and the crew. We toured the farm, rode tractors, milked the cows and met the baby calves. Now we get 1/2 a gallon of milk each week and have since eliminated the tummy aches and diarhea Eli often experienced with regular milk. The boys fondly refer to the milk as Farmer Kenny's milk or Racoon's milk. A mini step we have taken in adding nutritional value to our diet.

Outings.

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Mary and I have decided that each month we are going to get out and explore Colorado with the kiddos! What a treat this has been, exposing them to new activities and interests.

September included a trip to Sunflower Farms which is a working farm in Longmont with petting zoo, zip line, horse rides, treehouse, tire swings and a haystack maze. A playland for kiddos (and adults!) Luke's fondness for all things fast and dangerous came out in the zip line. Eli went at it with gusto as well, always trailing Luke by a few steps but with fervor and determination.

This month we hit up Berry Patch Farms in Brighton for a tractor ride into the fields of red raspberries, golden raspberries and strawberries. We spent several hours under the beautiful fall skies, breathing the fresh air and admiring the green farmlands. The boys learned how food ends up in the grocery store, what it takes to grow a plant and how to identify a ripened berry.

I am hoping this is a way for me to better understand individual learning styles and trigger points. You would think after spending 14 waking hours of everyday with them I would know this already but there is something about being outside in the fresh air that highlights natural tendencies and desires. They talk more, run faster and ooze excitement.

Part of my heart is still so desiring to homeschool these love bugs and part of my head is still saying no way. These outing days make it heard for my heart to listen to my head.

Kid's perspective.

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Sometimes I can just hear the wheels turning when Luke is trying to figure something out. He will ask a handful of questions and then ponder. A day, week or month later he will bring it up in discussion with his mind made up, my favorite part. His perspective is often well thought out, intentional and compassionate.

Whenever the boys and I are out and about it is inevitable that someone will make a comment, "Trying for that girl."

"Oh three boys, poor mom. No girl."

"No pink for you."

And most graciously I will answer, "I am the luckiest mom around. I have always wanted four boys. We are almost there."

Truly, I have.

So, at the mall this weekend when the conversation occurred Luke finished my sentence and replied to the saleswoman, "She always wanted 4 boys."

I looked at him with a glance of agreement and said, "Yep, you are right Luke but maybe God knows better and 3 is my perfect number."

"No mommy, he gave you just what you asked for, Luke, Eli, James and daddy."

That there stopped me right in my tracks, God did answer my prayers and I would have missed it without this kiddo's perspective.

Thanks sweet boy.

Daredevils.

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Mary says Matt is raising these kiddos to be adrenaline junkies. I agree.

Here is my contribution~

Matt rocks.

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Good gravy, I married a good man.

For anyone that reads this blog, I am so sorry for the gag factor that might ensue but since this is also a family journal, my hope is that as our boys become men and decide to look back over these writings they understand how admired their father is, by their mother.

For us, it has been 7 years of marriage this year. I have been told this is a rough one but for Matt and I it has been one of the best. With each year our relationship changes and our commitment strengthens. Don't take that to mean it is all marital bliss over here. We argue, disagree and, lordy, lordy we can get on each other's nerves but we love each other and like they said on the Facts of Life- we take the good, we take the bad.

Our first few years were harder. We moved (a lot), we were still figuring each other (and ourselves out), we both were stubborn and those lines of communication everyone talks about were not open. But then we both started to make some changes- apologizing during arguments, trying to acknowledge how someone else may be feeling instead of winning the fight, appreciating each other. Appreciating each other. These seem so elementary to write but good gracious they made a difference. So, with all that being said my husband rocks.

Our three sons can learn so much from him on how to be an honorable, humble, God serving man.

Last week work was a bit nutty for Matt. He had meeting after meeting, long, long hours, lots of stress. The kiddos and I were missing him. Luke wanted to play outside but Matt had mounds to get done and it was late. He told him, "Lets plan on it tomorrow." The following day, I know his to do list was a mile long, he had calls to make, reports to turn in and at 5pm I heard him walk upstairs from his office, head to the kitchen and tell Luke, "Hey bud, you ready to play ball?" All I heard from Luke was, "Dad, you are a man of your word." My heart smiled. What a wonderful lesson to teach your child. He spent that evening, after the kids were in bed, finishing his work.

A few weekends ago we took a day trip to the mountains to witness the Aspens in all their glory spinning their leaves into gold. We came home, uploaded the pictures and I began to skim through them. This one came up- me and sweet Baby James. My initial reaction- "Wow, look at all my wrinkles." Matt came over, took one look and said, "Babe, with all your smiling you are going to have laugh lines. You look beautiful." Thank you for loving me as I am.

This weekend I was feeling a bit lonely. Matt started reading the news while I was making breakfast and that one simple act turned into me unloading every wrong he had done in the last 24 hours on to him. Instead of yelling or making me feel bad, he cleaned the kitchen while I had a good cry. Sometimes an ear to listen will do wonders.

The surprise tin pot full of purple flowers that were brought home last week was just the icing on the cake. (Boys, a simple act of thoughtfulness is worth more than words.)

Babe, you truly do rock.

First snow.

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Only mid-October but we say, "I've been waiting for the snow to fall."

- The String Cheese Incident

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Autumn gold.

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Taking pictures when the leaves change has become a bit of a family tradition. We all load up in the car, head to the mountains and pick just the most beautiful place to capture this amazing time of year. The crisp mountain air, gold and fiery leaves and picturesque scenery make it a day to remember. Some how it has also become a tradition for Luke to pee on an Aspen tree....go figure. Last year we hit up Guanella Pass near Georgetown, this year St. Mary's Glacier.

Beauty-full!

Let the games begin.....

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Skateboarding.

Soccer.

Swimming.

Golf.

Football.

Rock climbing.

Jousting?! :)

Boys will be boys!

Crazy hair.

2011-09-27T15:18:00.000-07:00

Luke: Mom, I want to have hair like Uncle Travis.

Me: Okay, lets call Uncle Travis and see how he does it.

We proceed to call Uncle Travis and leave a VIM (very important message) on how he achieves his do. Later that day a voicemail pops up.

Uncle Travis: Hey Luke. I am so flattered you want to do your hair like me. It is not that hard to do at all. All you do is put a little gel in your hand and mix it together. Then just make crazy time in your hair. Mix it up and make it all spiky. Give me a call if you want to know more.

5 minutes later-

one.

happy.

kid.

Big boy bed.

2011-09-27T14:53:00.001-07:00

After our trip to California I was feeling a bit gutsy (or maybe just sleep deprived) and decided to move Eli into his big boy bed. It would make him and Luke roomies, which they love to call one and another. I was hesitant before because Eli was very fond of his crib and frankly, he likes to push the limits and I knew it was not going to be a smooth transition. During our trial run (the hotel on vacation) he only fell between the bed and the nightstand once so we decided to give it a go at home.

Beaming with pride!

About 15 minutes after this picture was taken he coerced Luke into sneaking out of the room and coming to find me, something Luke would have never thought to do on his own. Once Luke spotted me, he stated, "Mom, we are getting into mischief."

Eli is such the bad influence.

The nights have not gotten much easier but sure do warm my heart. They giggle, play, fight and jump off anything that stands higher than 4 inches off the ground. I love that they are cultivating a friendship all their own. When I check in on them I will often find Luke with his head covered by a pillow and Eli up still singing the ABC's or Daisy. Then two minutes later he will be out cold, fits his personality to a T.

Most amazing though is that this kid can actually sleep in the bed. Apparently he is keenly aware that if he rolls over he will bash his head on a truck or trophy because he will stay in that one position the duration of his nap. Cute.

Fall is just around the corner.

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I could almost feel a cool breeze in the air last weekend when we hit up the corn maze at Chatfield Botanic Gardens, too bad it was 85 degrees.

Luke has taken a liking to mazes and finished an entire workbook on them. We printed off the maze overview ahead of time but after hearing it takes an hour to get through we opted for the kiddie maze. The boys used some problem solving and teamwork to find the exit and improved their timing on each attempt. We also rode the extremely overpriced horse drawn carriage.

Discussing strategy!

Sweet Baby J!

Family fun.

Fall, you are so bittersweet. Goodbye to the long days of fun in the sun but hello to homemade soup, vibrant colored leaves and cool breezes!

Part two.

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We spent one day at Sea World with Matt's cousin Brett and his family. I just love his wife, Stephanie and their three adorable boys. Surprisingly, having the six boys at Sea World was great. Everyone had a buddy!

Luke and Ryder rode Shipwreck Rapids together and got drenched!

Here are the big boys waiting to ride the Tea Cups with Brett.

A few other highlights include a wonderful evening with Matt's Aunt Sandy and Uncle Rudy. The boys loved chasing them around in the open area. We also ran into my wonderful friend, Madelene who happened to being staying with her husband in the same hotel. I loved chatting with her while the boys were napping, I miss her sweet smile! Our last day there we spent having lunch with the Condon family. Kel and I have been friends since college. Her two girls are the same age as Luke and Eli, the foursome ran to their hearts content while we caught up on being mommas, friendship, marriage and the fun that goes with it. Can't wait to see that girl again!

Goodbye CA!

Vacation with 5.

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So we hit up California over Labor Day weekend and decided, if at all possible, we would like to make it an annual vacation! The weather was beautiful, the time was relaxing and we were able to enjoy the much needed time together. We made it with Baby James, he cried the entire plane ride both ways and was up four times each night but his happy demeanor throughout the trip made me soon forget.

The key to this bliss was staying at the hotel as much as possible. We were in California for four days and only spent one day out and about. The rest were spent frolicking at the beach or swimming in the pool. We started out this morning on a stroll to the beach and the boys went from making sand castles and dipping their toes in the water to.....

getting pummeled by waves and wearing their underwear in the ocean. I was so relieved Eli loved the sand between his toes this go around. Back in December he wouldn't go near it.

We all enjoyed our time at the pool. Baby James even kicked around a bit in the salt water pool.

Brace yourself, these boys are adrenaline junkies.

Big Boy

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As Aunt Dana put it, "Good thing those pants have elastic!"

Band-aids.

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One boo boo = 10 band-aids.

3 band-aids will be opened, put on and then taken off the wound for added effect. The other 7 will be used for the new scratches and owies that are found and can only be seen by the eyes of a 2 year old. A very dramatic and crocodile tear producing one at that. Good thing his love stretches as far as his cry!

Jesus, smells.

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Heading up the stairs after dinner Luke and I got to talking about having God in your heart. His reply, "Yea, Grams said Jesus is in there too."

Oh and as seen in this picture, Luke is a thumb sucker. Not all the time, only when he has his beloved "Hucks," a crocheted blanket from his Grams. He sticks his finger through a hole in the corner, rubs his nose with it and sniffs. Which reminds me, Luke is a sniffer. His nose knows and since most everything I use is fragrance free he will always ask to use the restroom when we are out and about. Come to find out it is not because he has to go but because he wants to smell the soap. I am on to him!

Florida Smiles.

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The Gang!

We were thrilled that Matt's parents (Grams and Pax) and Matt's nephew, Gino, were able to come out for a visit this summer. They all live in Spring Hill, Florida and are missed dearly. The night before they arrived Luke could not sleep and came out if his room and asked, "Are lots of hugs and kisses coming my way?" Oh, they sure did!

The week was action packed- a trip to the Alpine Slides and a follow up trip to ride the roller coaster, bumper boats and amusement park rides. (This reminded both Matt and I how we can't do spinning rides- ugh.) We also fit in lots of time on the porch with the boys praciticing golf and baseball, a movie night, a morning at the splash park and Clement Park, miniature golf, a baseball game (kind of as Luke got sick), and hiking. Lots of wildlife popped up too- deer, elk, a rattlesnake and bunnies, welcome to Colorado!

It was a time we will always cherish with so many wonderful memories and laughs. We are so thankful they all made the journey so we could spend this time together.

The boys were spoiled rotten. This helmet and jersey are now a prized possession.

Oh how James loves Gram's arms!

Riding the slides. Luke wanted to ride with Gino because he knows the heavier the weight in the sled the faster you go!

We love and miss you all!

We made it....I hope.

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Going into this whole third baby scenario I knew 6 weeks was my usual breaking point. In the past it involved lots of tears, sayings like "I can't do this" and "What were we thinking?" Sure enough, it came but I held out a little longer than usual, 7 weeks 1 day.

James was sick and I was on my way to the pediatrician, I backed into a parked car and completely wrecked the tailgate of my minivan (which I LOVE), had not slept more than 3 hours that night and was just finishing up antibiotics. Why was I on antibiotics? Good question as I had not taken any in years, so long I can't even remember but my nipple was severely damaged from nursing. I tried Polysporin, Gentian Violet, different nursing positions, advice from lactation consultants and nothing was working. 6 weeks into it I was still crying each time Baby James latched on and would break out in a sweat. I started a 10 day course of medicine and on the 9th day nursed with no tears. Whoo, relief, thank you. But when my dad called that morning I think the conversation went something along the lines of, "I am so tired. I can't do this. I just backed into a car" BUT lo and behold just a mere 2 weeks later we survived and are actually thriving. I got 7.5 hours of sleep last night! Yep, ME, 7.5 hours. I woke up ready to run a marathon, climb Mt Everest, start extreme couponing- just do something BIG! When all was said and done, I ran 3 miles AND took a shower. A good day to say the least.

I am keeping all of my finger's and toes crossed that this is not a fluke and we are on our way to blissful sleep each and every night. We will see but now that I am a bit more coherent I wanted to jot down those things that are "life changers" with a newborn. I would like to thank.....

1. Babywise. This is the book that changed it all. I started the program with Luke and continued it with Eli. Amazing. Yes, the baby does cry it out which some folks don't agree with but I think of it as winding down. Just like I might read a book or take a bath. The little guys are wrapping up their day. The basic premise is you work off a schedule- the babe eats, plays and then sleeps usually in a 3 to 4 hour block. With two older kiddos I have had to be a little more flexible but overall, we love it! Lots of sleep makes for a happy baby.

2. Miracle blanket. This little blanket can make your newborn into the tightest little sausage swaddle ever. No breaking out of it which means longer naps. Interestingly enough James is the first baby we have had that soothes himself by sucking. He is finding his thumb so I am going to have to figure out how to make the swaddle work for him- I have left an arm out, given him a pacifier. I am still experimenting.

3. Napping. Everyone told me with Luke to nap when he naps. Why did I not listen? I was able to make it work so all 3 kiddos nap or have quiet time simultaneously each day. Which means I have actually laid down and taken a quick nap. This can change the whole perspective on the day and make the sleepless nights bearable.

4. Eat. With Luke and Eli I was back to my pre-pregnancy weight at 8 weeks. Here I am at 9 weeks and am close but not there. Why? Because I eat and boy does it feel so much better. I snacked when little guy was getting up at night and it felt great. I also think it made for a faster recovery overall. So simple, so effective.

5. Accepting help. This go around my parents were here for 2 weeks to help me, we have Mrs. Mary during the week to help and my in-laws and nephew will be coming for 2 weeks. It really does take a village and I know this is not profound but the extra hands and hugs make a difference!

Minus the breakdown this post partum has been wonderful :) Maybe I am more at ease or a little more laid back but I am begging Matt for one more (baby that is). His response, "No way". My response, "We already have to get the big table when we go out to restaurants."

Her Bridal Shower.

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What a joy it was to host my sister's bridal shower with my cousin, Jenna. A day to celebrate just her.....her beauty and love are endless. My best friend.

We were all once Lampe girls or still are!

My sister's most amazing friends, Jenny and Kristi.

So sweet.

Yep, happy!

Summer Lovin'

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So my little sister, Jamie, got married June 19th. We now share the same wedding day and I was so thrilled to be part of her wedding. She had a vision- mountain cabins, vintage feel, an abundance of flowers and lots of love.

My sister and brother, Jamie and Travis. Twins!

Our whole family rallied together the day of the wedding to transform the grounds of this cabin retreat. It was beautiful already but throw in glass vases filled with peonies and wildflowers, photographs hung from twine twisting down wooden poles, haystacks covered with bright blue, purple and yellow fabric, picnic tables adorned with homemade napkins, colorful plates and delicious organic food, and key lime pie flown in from Florida. Oh perfection!

Jamie looked beautiful! Gasp worthy. The weather held out through the ceremony and dinner. The skies then opened and poured down rain, good luck ya know.

Lily and Marley are the sweetest girls and looked just beautiful. So sweet.

Jamie dancing with our most amazing father.

All smiles.

Oh and Luke caught the garter. Everyone cheered and he stood there stunned. He decided it was best suited as a headband.

It was lovely. Exquisite in every way. Congratulations Jamie and Jex!!

Chins.

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If you ask me there is just nothing cuter than chubby babies and chubby cats. Since we don't have any cats I am thrilled I finally have a chubby baby. Baby James was fighting a little cold last week so I took a quick trip to the pediatrician. He weighed in at 12 pounds 6 ounces. Holy cow! The doctor could not believe it and I am just glad all of our hardwork (late nights breastfeeding) is paying off. Matt told me, "Check out his chins." Usually those don't come in pairs but I love that his do.

Brothers.

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The boys do look a like, sort of. Here are pictures of each of them at one week old.

The first picture is James, the second is Eli and the third is Luke!

So, that is why they call it labor!

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Leading up to the arrival of Baby James, we were told stories again and again at the birthing center about fast labors, mommas delivering at home, in the car, etc. So, Matt and I knew we needed to have a plan in place and act quickly to have the calm, peaceful birth we hoped for. However, we were also warned that Baby #3 was usually a Wild Card, meaning they tended to not follow the pattern of previous births.

Little James proved to be our Wild Card in so many ways!

Saturday:

6pm- We are outside and the boys riding bikes, I am planting my first terrarium and it all starts. A back ache, subtle but enough to make me notice.

7pm- The backache continues and I decide to start timing- 8-15 minutes apart. Now I get flashbacks from when Eli is born. I went from this point to delivering him in 2 hours. I decide it is time to call my doula. She recommends I take bath and give her a call back to see if anything has changed. It has not.

8pm- I call the midwife. Sarah is on call and we discuss my past labors and desire for a calm and peaceful birth this go around. The contractions are not getting any stronger nor closer together so we decide to meet at the birthing center at 9:30pm.

9pm- Mrs. Mary arrives to watch the boys. I am in very good spirits and tell her we will see her in a few hours with a little boy.

9:30pm- Matt and I are thrillled, we arrive at the birthing center. Jacie, our doula, meets us there as does the midwife. We have a chance to get settled in and I am checked to see where we are. 3cm dialated, perfect. Right on track, I guess the baby will arrive at 1am.

10pm- We lay down and the contractions continue. Not too strong but enough to wake me out of sleep and send me to the bathroom. Sitting on a toilet is extremely comfortable at this point.

11pm-7am- nothing. Yep, nothing changed. No baby and only 1cm more dialated. We are all surprised, little Wild Card.

Sunday:

7am- The new midwife arrives- Laura- and at this point we can either go home and see what the day brings or stay. I send Matt home for a shower (we did not really pack anything thinking we would only be there a short while) and I take a walk around the neighbor.

12pm- Laura checks me- 4 cm and fully effaced, progress but so very slowly. I am tired from a night without sleep and psychologically drained. I run through my positive affirmations and visualize the birth.

3pm- 5 cm now. Laura tells me we can either head home or can try to get things moving. I am torn- Luke and Eli are at home and I miss them so. What if we head home only for active labor to start? Plus, I am already so tired.

3:15pm- I lose my mucus plug and take my first of 4 cotton root bark tinctures.

4pm- Contractions begin a consistent pattern. We call Jacie to come in. I get the birthing ball and begin to utilize deep breathing techniques through the contractions.

5pm- Jacie arrives. Matt and I enter the birthing tub. It is warm and comforting, helping to take the pressure off my body. At this point I can tell Laura is making preparations for a delivery. My deep breathes get even deeper, closer to a groan. I try to keep my toes from curling, Matt is holding my arms tightly as I am on my hand's and knees. He is breathing with me. Jacie is reminding me to relax and breathe the baby down. Pure exhaustion kicks in, can I do this?

5:15pm- I feel the urge to push. It is a bit confusing for me as with Luke and Eli I am sitting upright in a bed. Now I am on my hands and knees so it felt as though I was pushing backwards. I deliver my water bag thinking it is the baby, oh how much longer? Then I feel pressure, pressure through the pushes. Sweet baby had come down so quickly Laura kept him at the crowning position so I would not tear.

5:36pm- And then he arrives, just about 24 hours after feeling my first contraction....little Wild Card.

I am overcome with joy, relief and exhaustion. Oh yes, that was labor. We make our way to the bed to recover. I am administerd an IV of fluids and arnica as I did not feel well. Over the next four hours, we nurse and surprisingly James latches on and eats right away. I am given an herbal bath and we marvel at this sweet boy.

Dad getting lots of cuddle time before we head home that night.

My biggest baby- little Wild Card- at a week early he is 7 lbs and 5 ounces. Both Eli and Luke were under 7 pounds.

What a blessing- a third little boy to love!

James Matthew.

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So much for my motherly intuition. I thought this sweet baby was going to arrive Friday, May 6th but he had other plans and made his debut on Sunday, May 1st at 5:36pm. He weighed 7 lbs and 5 ounces and was 20 inches long.

Welcome sweet boy!

Final countdown.

2011-04-30T14:23:00.001-07:00

So, 10 days and counting until my due date! Everything is in line, finally. The house is in order, baby stuff is washed and out, doula is ready to go, Mrs. Mary is on call to watch the boys, Matt is in town and I am feeling great!

I am not sure what has been so different about this pregnancy but wow, it has been different. Is it the altitude of living in Colorado, me being just a bit older, having two other children to care for........I am not sure but it has been more challenging. I have been more tired and feel everything! With Luke and Eli I never really got contractions prior to going into labor and now I am feeling them all the time. I have also not had the energy I am used to, for a girl that likes to get things done this is not a good thing. One minor break down to Matt though and he put it all into perspective- you are doing just fine! I am. With about a week left (and I predict this fellow will make his entrance on May 6th) I am preparing to have the most amazing and wonderful birth experience yet! Oh and we still have no idea on a name- James and Jacob are still holding the top spots but no decision has been made.

I just can't wait to meet you Little Guy!

Mrs. Mary

2011-04-30T14:16:00.000-07:00

We were lucky enough to cross paths with Mrs. Mary about a year ago and persuaded her to come and help me with the kiddos. Originally, she would come over two mornings a week for two hours so I could slip out and run an errand or get a work out in. A few months into it, Matt and I discussed the fact that we needed a little better work and life balance. Our weekends seemed to be filled to the brim with errands, haircuts, grocery shopping, work for him, just regular life stuff. We decided at that point we needed a little more sanity and the best way to get that was for me to help him with his work and to have Mary come more often.

What a life changer this was........some weeks I helped Matt, other weeks were full of meetings with housing contractors, going through closing paperwork on the house or midwife appointments for the baby but we have enjoyed so much quality time together as a family come Saturday and Sunday.

Mary is just so wonderful. The boys adore her, she is creative and loving. I never hesitate to ask her for advice on parenting (having raised two wonderful children herself), she is a wonderful cook and good person. We are so better for having her in our lives! So, she is my secret weapon with this 3rd kiddo. With no family around this time I am feeling a bit overwhelmed but with Mary around it all seems more manageable. A real life Mary Poppins.

Goodbye 3, HELLO 4!

2011-04-30T14:02:00.000-07:00

This was Luke's favorite saying on his 4th Birthday! So hard to believe it is here. I am a bit reminiscent with the baby coming and all but can this sweet, little boy already be 4, truly! I can not believe it.

For his birthday he received a two wheel bike. Let me tell you- the kid was up and riding the same day he got it! The trick- the Skuut. He mastered balancing on the Skuut and after 15 minutes of learning to pedal with training wheels we took them off and there he went. We are still learning to break but the little dare devil sees no reason to slow down. He and Matt have done a few "trails" around here- small dirt paths- and he rings that bell like it is nobodies business. All he wants to do is RIDE!

We also celebrated by inviting his best bud, Dylan, to Chuck E Cheese and then hitting up Tokyo Joes afterward for lunch and cake.

I love watching his personality develop. He is inquisitive and asks questions all day long. His sense of humor will make me smile most any day. During his 4 year check up at the doctor the nurse was doing his eye exam. She was at the last line of pictures that were extremely small, wanting to know what the object was. Luke replied with, "Excuse me but do you think you can move that a bit closer so I can take a look." She and I both busted out laughing. He loves to rough house with Eli, never missing an opportunity to get a jab or elbow in but will always follow up with a kiss to a boo boo. His memory is amazing and providing details to stories is his forte.

Happy Birthday sweet Luke. I know I tell you every night but I thank God each and every day for giving me such a wonderful and amazing son!!

Another big day!

2011-04-30T13:47:00.000-07:00

The first part of our Florida trip was to celebrate another BIG DAY! My sister, Jamie's Spa/Bachelorette Party. She wanted something low key and intimate so a spa day at the Don Cesar was perfect.

Matt and the kidddos hung out at the pool with my dad and brother while we treated ourselves to massages and a rooftop lunch overlooking the ocean. Beautiful and amazing, just like my sister.

We stayed at a hotel on the beach and the kiddos loved the pool. Jex and the girls joined us and the boys just loved that. Funny enough, we could not go on the beach as Eli would not touch his toes in the sand. You would set him down and he would just balance on his bum not letting his feet or hands touch the ground and cry. So, the pool it was with lots of laughs!

Ah, what a trip!

The Big Day!

2011-04-24T16:17:00.000-07:00

Not ready just yet for the baby but we had another BIG DAY! Matt's niece, Samantha, got married in Florida.....what a day (actually week) to remember. Matt's family flew in from California and Pittsburgh and we hadn't seen so many of them in years, it was a treat. Lucky for us, the wedding was held April 2nd with my last allowable day to fly being the 3rd- just in time!

Just like all weddings they had their fair share of the unexpected- the limo got in an accident the day before and they had to find a new company, the photographer had a family emergency and needed to be replaced but the day could not have turned out any better. Tears of joy from a beautiful ceremony, swells of pride as Luke walked down the aisle as the "ring barrier" and sweat from dancing the night away (with plenty of braxton hicks contractions to remind me to tone it down) made it a day to remember.

Luke LOVES his Aunt Dana!

Ready to make his appearance.

Grams and Pax.

Eli would not leave the dance floor. The boy has rhythm and a killer smile- such a little heart breaker. He also loves to give "tisses" and was more than willing to smooch the pretty ladies.

Dad and his boys!

Congratulations to Samantha and Josh, cheers to many years of love and happiness!

Getting settled in.

2011-03-19T15:05:00.000-07:00

So, I can definetley say that moving when you are 7 months pregnant with two kiddos and husband that had to be out of town for work is exhausting! I think I am just recovering now. Thankfully my amazing friend, Jess, and awesome cousin, Callie, powerhoused through the day with the movers and made sure we had clean sheets, dishes in the pantry, dinner on the table and clean clothes to wear. Mary took Luke and Eli for the day and it was so fun to see their faces when they arrived back to their new home. A few days later my good friend, Christine, was so wonderful and came over to organize the basement and garage. Give a few determined women a goal and you can accomplish anything :) I am so grateful for their help! Thank you girls!

We are getting settled in. I was not sure how the transition would pan out for Luke but he LOVES our new house. Most every day he asks me, "So, mom, what do you think of our new house?" Eli never skipped a beat! We explore the secret path at the end of our cul-de-sac. Walk up to Coyote Song Trail and track down the trail. We wind down to the rock formations and climb them. We are so thrilled and loving our new neighborhood!

The house is a work in progress. It has come a LONG way but there is still so much I would like to do. A few pictures are hung and some decorations are up, it will all come together sooner or later. I will post some before and after pictures as it is amazing what a little paint and creativity can do.

We are on the countdown for Little Guy #3- 7 more weeks to go! I just can't believe it. I saw my midwife yesterday and we are doing great. Matt and I had our last appointment with Jacie, our doula. She suggested I write out exactly how I want my birth to be and use that during my visualizations- GENIUS. I am so big on the mind and body connection that I think this will do wonders for me. I look forward to this birth experience and meeting our love bug.

Natural child birth- Part 2.

2011-02-25T21:56:00.000-08:00

Amazing describes this so accurately because I could have never imagined Matt and I going down this path. First of all, I have a very low pain tolerance. I actually passed out when I got my ear pierced when I was young. I cried if I stubbed my toe. And secondly, I never understood why anyone would chance not having their baby at a hospital? Our journey truly began three years earlier when I was about 20 weeks pregnant and expecting Luke. Matt and I were thrilled and sat in our hospital mandated New Parent's Education Class. We had found an OB/GYN in the area and she was nice enough. Not exactly warm or friendly but very experienced. We had started our rotations at her practice and found some of the drs were wonderful and others left so much to be desired. We were new to this whole thing, why would we question it. But that Saturday class our views began to shift. Our instructor began to go through the section regarding what to expect in labor and delivery. As an employee of the hospital I was amazed that she was so open and keen on the idea of really deciding what you want out of your delivery. What matters most to you as a family, mother and to your newborn. She recited the C section statistics of the various hospitals, why drs encourage scheduled inductions, etc. I was shocked, upset and scared. I left that day feeling utterly sick and disgusted. I did not even know what I wanted, how could I have overlooked so much. Then the research began. I developed a birthing plan and discussed it with OB/GYN at our next visit. She listened to me, made a note in my chart and that was that. Easy enough I thought. Hmm. Okay. I decided shortly after that, I wanted a natural child birth. Matt and I took a crash course in HypnoBirthing and I read as much as I could and did all of the exercises. I was ready and very excited! Three weeks later, 2am my water breaks. I called my OB/GYN and let her know what had happened. Granted it was early in the morning but her response was, "Great I will get the pitocin started." Why, my water had broken? Remember I want to do a natural birth. Her reply was, "We will see once you are at the hospital." Strike 1. I get to the hospital, I had baked cookies for the staff, they were very welcoming and encouraging. It was a fairly slow night and I was able to get the big suite with the tub. Labor started progressing and three years later it is funny what you remember. The nurse had trouble getting the IV in my arm. I easily dehydrate and my veins were already so small, for weeks my arms were lined with bruises at those futile attempts. Two nurses later I was finally getting fluids. My sister showed up and so sweetly brought breakfast. I was not allowed to have food, uggh and Matt was starving.....he had an everything bagel with cream cheese and coffee. Oh that smell will haunt me forever. The pain had gotten so strong and my senses must have been at their peek because I could smell that wretched scent across the room and almost threw up. I would walk back and forth between the bed, bathroom and tub, attached to an IV. It was 10:30am, the nurse checked me. 4 centimeters dilated. I could barely breathe through the contractions, I was sweating and then getting cold. 15 minutes passed and I looked at Matt. We had truly wanted a natural birth and I was prepared for it but I could not make it. I could not handle it. I looked at him and said, "I think I need the epidural." With no hesitation, he took my hand and called the nurse in to tell her. I felt so defeated. What came next, changed the course of my experience. The nurse looked at me and said so matter of factly, "You are doing so well. I need to check you again." I am so grateful I had a nurse that knew her job and what to look for. Looked at each patient and their wants rather than what was easiest for her. She checked me, I was 9cm. I remember her smile and she said, "No wonder, you are ready to have this baby. I can get the epidural but I know you want a natural birth and I think you can do this." I asked her how much longer it would be and she, obviously, did not know. She called my dr and a few minutes later I had the urge to push. Where was the dr.? 15, 20, 30 minutes past....no sign of the dr and the office was just next door. Strike 2. The heart rate dropped I was on all fours and so scared and tired. Stop pushing they shouted. Stop pushing, really? I could not. My sister held my hand, Matt ran out into the hall and grabbed a nurse and in a few choice words asked, "Where is the dr?" I know now at about this time Grams and Pax had arrived and were hoping to see us but were told the baby was almost here. I remember the OB/GYN arriving, arrogant but ready to deliver. Luke was coming now, sunny side up. No wonder the pain was so excruciating. The cord was caught around his neck but his heart rate stayed strong. At 12:30pm on April 17, 2007 Luke Stephen arrived at 6 pounds 11 ounces. Jamie was such a trooper, she had not expected to be there for the delivery and left a few minutes after. She told me it was an experience and had to go lay down. I recovered in the hospital for the next several days, proud of what I had accomplished, excited about our new family.

Fast forward, 15 months and we find out we are pregnant! We went back to the same OB practice we had gone to before but saw a different dr. Dr. Bray was wonderful- friendly, caring, relatable. Funny how you tend to forget the negative things that happen to you but as I started rotating through the practice it all came back. Coincidentally, I got a prenatal massage from a good friend of mine, Rochelle. She was pregnant and had just decided to have a natural birth at a birthing center. We discussed the idea and I was intrigued. A place that is supportive of natural child birth, midwives that are extensively trained and knowledgeable and partner with the mother through the process. I was not sure how I felt about this idea. I watched a documentary called, "The Business of Being Born," and began reading books, "Birthing from Within" by Ina May Gaskin.......Matt and I started having conversations and decided to visit the center. This is where I wanted to have my baby. It was a family environment- Luke was encouraged to come and help listen to the baby's heart beat. They wanted to know about me, about our family, about what I had envisioned for my birth. My appointments were never rushed or hurried. They encouraged me to call with any questions. I did and actually spoke with a midwife at any hour of the day. I began my training for the natural birth as well. I call it training because it was to me. I have found the power of the mind to do miraculous things. I began to visualize how I wanted my birth to be, what it would feel like, how labor would progress. There is no doubt that this preparation allowed for such an 'easy' delivery.

Natural child birth has been one of the most miraculous experiences of my life. There are so many things we work and labor for in life but the joy of giving life to a child can not be compared. Natural child birth is not for everyone. Doctors are highly specialized and trained in high risk or emergency situations. Their training is crucial and know how is extremely important during these deliveries but for me, a low risk patient I have found these two experiences empowered me to be a better mother. I, intuitively, understand myself and my capabilities better.

So with all of this, we are getting ready for another little guy to join our family. We have found an amazing doula, Jacie, and will be delivering at Mountain Midwifery Birthing Center. I am excited to prepare for this next wonderful experience.

2 for you Mr. Eli!

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I see this face each and every day. A scowling frown which turns into a smile at a moment's notice. At two years old this little man's personality is really starting to come through. He is as lovable as he is grouchy and particular as he is open minded. At any given moment I can find him playing animals by himself or lining up cars in the window sill. He doesn't need mom or dad around to entertain him but will always open his arms for a hug and a kiss. I have never heard him utter the word "yes" but to most any question he is asked will answer with a drawn out, "sure." He is empathetic and kind hearted, open to sharing and being loved on. If you start to sing "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" to him his sweet little voice will follow along. He is strong and athletic, jumping, sliding and wrestling with the big guys. He is my little roller coaster of emotions. I could kiss that little face all day!

Happy Birthday E!

Natural child birth- Part 1.

2011-02-24T20:39:00.000-08:00

It is hard to believe that two year's ago today, I woke up knowing that our family of three would soon be four. A hard feeling to put into words but it happened with Luke as well, I just knew. Unfortunately, this Tuesday Luke and Matt both happened to be sick in bed with the flu- fever, vomiting and my doula was in the hospital with a obscure viral infection.

I had a scheduled check up that morning at the birthing center. I arrived and saw a woman laboring in the room down the hall. I thought to myself, "Hmm, I wonder if she will still be here when I come in." I told the midwife during my appointment that I felt the baby was coming. She asked if I wanted to be checked and I agreed. Knowing I had two sickos at home, I thought it would help me plan ahead. She said I was barely dilated. It was not until after lunch that the surges began. Very mildly at first and folding all of the dirty sheets and towels kept me busy. Coincidentally, I received a call from my doula's partner, Stephanie. She told me that she wanted to meet me in case I went into labor and she would swing by after work. I let her know that I felt like my labor had started and we agreed that I would start timing my surges. They were very inconsistent at first but around 3:30pm began to get stronger and closer together. We called Matt's parents by 5pm and asked them to come down. Stephanie arrived and called the birthing center to let them know our situation. They encouraged us to stay at home as long as possible as they had several other mothers in labor.

At 6:15pm I looked at Matt and told him we needed to go. Matt's parents and sister had just arrived and good thing. The surges were extremely strong, I had to stop and kneel in the driveway to breath through them. What would normally be a 15 minute drive took close to 30 minutes as we were stuck behind the slowest driver on a one lane road. Matt was frustrated and the labor was beginning to get unbearable. We arrived at the center and I went right into the room and was welcomed by Andrea, my midwife. I insisted on using the bathroom but she said she needed to check me first. I said okay and "Sorry if I go to the bathroom on you." She laughed and shouted that she needed a birth assistant in the room right now, I was having the baby. Poor Matt, he was trying to get all my things in the room and set up my soothing birthing music. He turned around and could not believe he saw the head. 8 minutes later, little Eli joined the world. The fastest birth at the center, not even giving us enough time to hop in the tub and have a water delivery as we had planned.

The experience was overwhelming, calming, wonderful, amazing and full of joy. 6 lbs and 12 ounces, 20 1/2 inches long. He checked out perfectly and we headed home 4 hours later.

The first night was rough. Matt could barely get out of bed, Luke was sick all night and I had a vigilant watch over Eli. He had a little fluid in his lungs and while the midwife assured me he would be okay I just could not keep my momma's eyes off of him. Those first few days were very tough. I could not stay in bed to get the recovery I fully needed and Matt could not help as he would have liked to. This was the toughest part. I also learned that right at the 6 week mark I break down. Matt is back at work, the sleep deprivation is setting in and all of the change starts to take its toll. So, I cried and got through it. Every mother will and does. It is just all part of it. Then, voila, one day Little Man, sleeps 4 hours in a row and you feel like a new woman! Alive and refreshed, ready to conquer the world. Truly amazing!

Surfing in January.

2011-01-30T20:17:00.000-08:00

All this good news!

2011-01-29T19:31:00.000-08:00

Oh 2011 is off with a bang!

My sister is engaged and wedding plans are in the works. Think~ Colorado, June 19th (we are sharing our anniversary day), a fun and hippie-esque wedding.

It is another boy for us! Believe it or not- after some coercion Matt has given me full rights to picking the name. Hmmm.........James or Jacob are at the top of the list right now!

We bought a house. This has been in the works for awhile, 5 months to be exact. It is a foreclosed home a few miles from our current house. It needs a little TLC but we are close to hiking trails and tucked away in a beautiful valley. The closing is in just a week and then the craziness begins or rather just continues.......

Someone Like You.

2011-01-14T20:16:00.000-08:00

I've been searching a long time

For someone exactly like you
I've been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied. Someone exactly
Like you.

I've been travellin' a hard road
Lookin' for someone exactly like you
I've been carryin' my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come
Shining through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied. Someone exactly
Like you.

I've been doin' some soul searching
To find out where you're at
I've been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you... etc.

I've been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different
Drum.
But just lately I have
Realized
The best is yet to come. - Van Morrison

These were the words Matt and I danced to at our wedding. As I hear this song, it amazes me that God's grace continues to shine down on us with such truth and wisdom. To know that in the struggle, He has a plan. A plan for me.

It was two weeks before Matt and I were to be married. He had been doing some soul searching, some deep and heavy stuff. Reading his Bible at the park, trying to find his place in this world. I was working my job as a pharmaceutical rep and busy as a bee planning the weeding. His life had been consumed by this book and while I knew my love for God, I was in what I remember to be a transition period. I knew that my heart did not sit with the Catholic faith as I had been raised and I was not sure where that left me. And while we had all the "necessary" discussions about money, religion, kids where did his changing leave us? We sat down and tearfully told him that I was not sure I would ever be the Sunday school/teacher/wife, stay at home mom, Bible searching women. Maybe that was what he needed, maybe that was what he wanted. What if I could not give him that? I told him to please think about it, think hard, and let me know. Without a moment of hesitation, he looked at me, grabbed me, and held me. He told me, "You are what I want. Whatever God has in his plans for us is what I want."

Looking back, this truly set the tone for our marriage. For him to have trusted Him. Matt has changed, I have changed (thank goodness!). To have thought I loved him that day we wed, pales in comparison to the devotion and admiration I have for him today. He is the father every child deserves and the husband every woman dreams for. He fights fair and loves deeply. We don't have the perfect marriage or perfect kids but we have a commitment to one and another and our amazing children that makes this life ten shades brighter than I ever thought it would be. Matt, I can never thank you enough. My love forever.

Getting bigger and bigger- 20 weeks with baby #3.

A Florida Christmas- Part 3.

2010-12-29T07:42:00.000-08:00

After Disney, we headed over to my parent's house to spend a few days in Ponce Inlet. Boy oh boy was it cold. This year we had two more kiddos added to the bunch was so wonderful! Lily and Marley are so sweet and kind, the boys immediately took to them.

Everyone trying to have a mustache as cool as Pops!

Perfecting his skills!

Where's the beach?

Hockey studs.

Luke does not look happy at all :)

This is picture is such a wonderful depiction of my mother. Her heart is huge, her smile big and her love, boundless!

A Florida Christmas- Part 2.

2010-12-29T07:19:00.000-08:00

Disney World was so much fun. We got up at the crack of dawn, drove to Orlando and were ready to conquer one of the busiest mouse days of the year. Grammy, pops, Uncle Trav, Aunt Jamie and her fiance, Jex, and his daughters, Lily and Marley joined us. What a day! By 10:30am Luke had ridden Thunder Mountain Railroad 4 times, Splash Mountain 3 times and we were off to explore the rest of the park. We took in the dance show, 13 more rides and the parade. It was a full day of laughs, adventure and memories! Thank you Grammy and Pops!

Drenched after riding Splash Mountain. Luke was brave enough to raise his hands in the air on ThunderMountain Railroad. I love his adventurous spirit.

My mom and Uncle Travis before the Mickey show.

Eli just couldn't keep his eyes open!

Aunt Jamie and Eli.

All the kiddos!

Best view of the parade- from the shoulders!

Thanks for all of the fun!

A Florida Christmas.

2010-12-28T13:38:00.000-08:00

Oh yes, this Christmas the best! Ten days in Florida, a healthy Pax, one round of miniature golf, playing Red Rover, a date night for Matt and I, a trip to Disney World, riding the Volkswagon bus singing carols in search of lights and Luke's first bowling session........we sure had a holly jolly Christmas.

Two love birds. We are so blessed to spend this time together. Keep beatin' those odds Pax.

Gino was so sweet and got Luke drums for Christmas. These boys are fantastic musicians!

The soon to be Mr. and Mrs. Kennedy.

Family picture- will be so fun to see us as a family of 5 next year!

Don't let this cute face fool you, this one can go from smiles to a full on tantrum in 2 seconds flat!

Mr. Easy Going.

Putt putt here we come!

Hole in one!

Aunt Dana shows us how it is done with the hula hoop! It is so wonderful to have a sister-in-law like Dana. She is so easy to get along with, has the best sense of humor and the most generous of hearts. Luke loves his Aunt Dana so and always looks forward to the night he gets to spend at Dana's house. She can make him giggle like no one else and they have created so many wonderful memories together. Aunt Dana, we hope you know how much we love you!

Christmas.

2010-12-26T20:12:00.000-08:00

This year we decided to borrow a wonderful tradition from the Davidson family. www.themayfiles.com. For gift giving, each child received, a want, a need and something to read. Simple and lots of fun! As Luke and I discussed this prior to Christmas he really contemplated about the gift he wanted most. His little mind would hop back and forth between race tracks, musical instruments, costumes and a bike.

The loop to loop was a big hit!

I love this picture as Matt is not easily surprised. His Ipad has been "life changing." :)

Eli was just happy to get......

Merry Christmas and many blessings.

Merry Christmas 2010

2010-12-25T08:37:00.000-08:00

Grateful Little Elf.

2010-12-24T08:39:00.000-08:00

This year we received the "Elf on a Shelf" from Matt's, very generous, Aunt Sandy and Uncle Rudy. We decided to change it up a bit though and soon the "Grateful Little Elf", a new Klasnick family tradition arrived.

Most every day in December the boys would wake up and search for the Elf. As Eli is getting older, they are becoming more competitive.

Once found, Luke would spell out the letters on the clue and sound out the word. The word was always a reminder of something to be grateful for. Once we figured out the word Luke would hang it on our grateful collage and we would come up with a pay it forward type idea for the day. The whole concept centered around the fact that we would help someone that did not have what we were grateful for.

To watch Luke's heart open and his mind come up with ways we could help others was touching. His generosity, foresight and kindness amazed me. For our December to be focused on others and not ourselves was the most wonderful of gifts received.

One trip found us at the neighborhood assisted living center. Luke and Eli arrived with bells on their necks, a smile on their face and candy canes for all of the "grandmas and grandpas." Eli, of course, stayed in momma's arms but I witnessed Luke venturing out~ dancing, carrying on conversations with adults, asking questions and showing his love. The kid landed so many red lipstick kisses he could have been a Revlon model.

The educational aspect of this new tradition was a bonus. The Gathering Place is a day shelter for homeless mothers. Together with Luke's best friend, Dylan, the boy's read through a list of the most needed items at the shelter. The boys were given a budget and taken to the store to make their purchases. They then delivered the items. Reading, math, and lots of fun filled this day.

Although, looking back the most impactful were the discussions that opened up about the way we live. For Luke to realize that not all children wake up in a warm home and open the refrigerator to choose what they want to eat. For some little boys to not have a father to show them love and encouragement or know that there is a God that loves them. For all of these things, and so many more we are so very grateful.

Santa and the chicken.

2010-12-23T08:01:00.000-08:00

So, Luke and Eli know that Santa is not real. To them, he is like Mickey Mouse, a character. Matt and I felt it is important to be as honest as possible with the boys. Does this take the fun out of Christmas? Not at all. Do the kids miss out on the excitement of Santa coming and bringing them presents? Not that we can tell. They were thrilled to go to bed and know in the morning that they would be opening the gifts that mom and dad brought. Will we have issues arise with other children that do believe? Maybe. We are hoping that the boys will know that all families believe and do different things, not just in Santa but with religion, education, activities. This just works for us.

This year was fun though because we were at the mall one day and the boys saw Santa. Their curiosity piqued and they wanted to go check him out. Eli would have no part of sitting on Santa's lap but Luke was game. He marched right up and when Santa asked Luke what he wanted, Luke replied with, "A loop to loop" (race track). Santa said, "What else?" Luke looked a little surprised, not ever thinking he could get two gifts. He put his finger to his head in deep thought and said, "A chicken." Santa, all the elves and myself laughed.

Eli admiring from afar.

Tickling.

2010-12-12T06:44:00.001-08:00

Luke: Dad, while you were tickling me, I peed.

Parade of Lights.

2010-12-09T14:10:00.001-08:00

Saturday night we packed up and headed downtown for the night. We stayed in a hotel, ate yummy pizza and tried to brave the cold to see the boys first parade- The Parade of Lights. We met the Kessler family, my cousin, Callie, and (almost) the Howard family. A mere 30 degrees and lots of people made it very interesting! Poor Eli did not even make it for the beginning of the parade. The only thing to keep him from crying were the horse drawn carriages we could see every now and again. Luckily, our hotel room looked out over the street so Eli and I enjoyed a warm, bird's eye view of the show while Matt and Luke had front row seats in the street below!

The next morning we went out for crepes (a new Luke and Eli favorite) and rode the shuttle bus up and down the 16t street mall. It was a fun little getaway!

Ski Time.

2010-12-05T14:00:00.000-08:00

I truly think Matt had been waiting for this day for the past 3.5 years. The day he could take his son skiing. There is something about the mountains, snow and being outside that takes hold of Matt's heart and fills him with life. To share this with his son, will be his joy.

The whole family headed up to the mountain. Unfortunately, Eli was not feeling well that day so he and I spent most of the day in the warming hut not zooming around on the slw like we had hoped. Luke took a 1/2 day lesson. Afterward he and Matt did a few runs down the magic carpet and pretty much every day you can find him working on his "pizza" and "french fry" skills in the living room. Oh- and let me not forget- all of the snowboard tricks he does off of our ottoman.

Cheers to many fun days on the mountain!

Thankful Thanksgiving!

2010-11-30T17:45:00.000-08:00

Before heading back home we spent a lovely Thanksgiving with Matt's family. His Aunt Sandy, Uncle Rudy and their children- Brett (his family) and Tara. They were so gracious to invite us as they already had a house full of guests! It was a feast with many laughs and lots of memories.

(My apologies for a lack of pictures and any of good quality. I traveled to California by myself with the children and there was only so much this pregnant momma could carry. The good camera didn't make the cut!)

It is amazing how the children are growing and learning every day. Uncle Rudy blessed the food and right after he finished his prayer, as we were all standing holding hands, Luke stepped forward and said that it was his turn. We all bowed our heads and listened to his sweet voice praise Our Lord. He thanked Him for putting a roof over our head, for delicious food, for helmets to keep our head safe, and for a wonderful family. As he spoke Eli walked around the circle shaking hands with all the pretty girls. My heart could have burst. It was a thankful Thanksgiving!

California- San Diego.

2010-11-30T13:15:00.000-08:00

After spending a few days in Orange County we headed south to San Diego. Unfortunately, it was not much warmer there but there was lots of fun to be had. We stopped by Matt's cousin's house. His name is Brett and he has a wonderful wife, Stephanie. They have two little peanuts that are about the same age as Luke and Eli. Steph is also pregnant with her third little guy! It was such a wonderful time.

Luke loved Ryder's Chargers helmet. No worries though- he is still a Steelers fan.

The next day Luke tasted his first In-N-Out burger. He was not afraid or shy about it. We also played our first miniature golf game with Luke (he is addicted now and practices all the time) and then hit the beach.

Our last day was a full 8 hours at LegoLand. Brett and Ryder were able to join us! This was the highlight for the boys. Luke had been doing extra chores around the house for a month and had saved his money to help buy the ticket. He enjoyed every moment but nothing could top riding The Dragon roller coaster no less than 5 times. Here is The Dragon roller coaster Take 1!

Eli was not tall enough for many of the rides. So, we saw these airplanes for the better part of an hour.

I always wondered why people would spend a mini fortune to take their kiddos to amusement parks, concerts, shows. Now I know. It is to see a smile like this.

California- Orange County.

2010-11-29T13:56:00.000-08:00

Last week we found ourselves, reuniting with old friends, splashing in the waves of a chilly yet gorgeous beach, laughing together, enjoying family and rejuvenating our hearts. Isn't that what vacation is all about?

Beautiful views from the St. Regis in Monarch Beach. Matt had earned a few free nights here, wow. Relaxing.

The weather was cold in California terms. We made it swimming in the hot tub twice, the beach and spent some time playing hide in seek in the courtyards.

The hotel provided a golf cart shuttle down to the beach. The boys thought this was the best! We enjoyed a wonderful dinner beachside with Matt's Uncle Rudy and Aunt Sandy. They also treated us to dinner at one of their restaurants- Savannahs. Yum. The only picture I took that evening is extremley blurry though:(

9-1-1, It was bound to happen.

2010-11-18T12:40:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it is hard to tell if Luke and Eli are particularly rambunctious or if they are just being boys. I know they have lots of energy and laugh while jumping, spinning and flipping off just about anything in our house.

Yesterday I went to change the laundry in the basement, heard a scream and as I was running up the stairs heard Luke say, "Eli has blood." I walk in to find Eli holding his toothbrush (which he can be found doing about 25% of the day) full of blood and screaming. I picked him up, he was hysterical and I asked Luke what happened.

In Luke's terms, "I bumped him off the stool (in the bathroom where they brush their teeth) and he hit his head." There was a lot of blood and I was having trouble telling where it was coming from. I took Eli to the sink to wash him off but it just kept coming. I tried to lay him down but when I did that he started to whimper, his eyes fluttered and I had no idea what was happening. I called 911 thinking maybe he had a concussion. They instructed me to keep him upright.

Once they arrived Eli had calmed down and was waving at the firetrucks as they pulled up. We all thought the blood was coming from his mouth, the paramedic looked him over as best he could but stubborn Eli would not let go of me or let anyone look in his mouth. Turns out he had gashed his chin. We decided to forgo an ambulance ride and take him to our pediatrician to get it fixed up. Forget stitches, nowadays they have super glue. Within the hour he was as good as new, proud of his boo boo.

Lo and behold, ten minutes after this he fell out of the cart at Costco. Oh sweet love. Then proceeded to trip over his fire truck once we were home and get a fat lip.

Well, not my most stellar day as a mother.

Lesson learned~ Luke is very adventuresome and while Eli so wants and so tries to keep up with him, I need to set boundaries. If you were to ask Luke what my job as a mother is he will tell you, "To keep me safe and healthy." I am hoping these boundaries will do just that.

The many faces of Luke!

2010-11-16T19:44:00.001-08:00

Where did fall go?

2010-11-16T19:27:00.001-08:00

To pumpkin patches and hayrides~

To long sleeve shirts and jumping in the leaves~

To visits with Grammy and Pops~

To eating homemade candy apples, drawing on pumpkins and trick or treating~

(This is Luke and his buddy, Dylan, on Halloween!)

A letter for Eli.

2010-11-14T20:16:00.002-08:00

My sweet Eli,

It is the time of day that your dad and I look forward to most. The sun has set, your teeth are brushed, warm jammies cover your little body. You have sat in my lap attentively listening to book after book, some I am sure you know the words as I have read them time and time again, with your big, dark eyes studying the pages. You know this is the last page and you turn to me with arms wide open. Luke turns off the light and I scoop you up. I hold you. Both arms wrapped around my neck, your head on my shoulder. I sing in your ear, "Daisy, daisy give me your answer true. I'm half crazy all for the love of you. It won't be a stylish marriage, I can't afford a carriage but you'll look sweet upon the seat of a bicycle built for two." You are hugging me with no hint of letting go, I can feel your heartbeat against my chest. The most loving of cuddles. I start again and set you in your crib. You look into my eyes, with love and tenderness. One sweet smile and my heart melts. Thank you for those most precious moments.

Eli you smile big and love hard. Your ability to learn by watching amazes me. Your quick temper has made me think on my toes more than once. Every boo boo needs a kiss and you love to flush toilets (lets just forget about last week when I found you drinking from the toilet.) You never pass up an opportunity to give someone a hug or dance to any given beat. You are my son and I am forever grateful that God has blessed me with your love.

(I know I have violated some copyright laws here, I am sure. My amazing friend, Kristie, of Kristie Serra Photography took this picture of me and sweet cheeks this summer. I took a picture of the picture and here it is. So sorry Kris and I know the color is all wrong but the smile is all right :) Please forgive me.)

To Live Content with Small Means.

2010-11-06T18:40:00.000-07:00

"To live content with small means;

to seek elegance rather than luxury,

and refinement rather than fashion;

to be worthy, not respectable,

and wealthy, not rich;

to study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly;

to listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages, with open heart;

to bear all cheerfully, do all bravely,

await occasions, hurry never.

In a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious,

grow up through the common.

This is to be my symphony. "

By: William Henry Channing

Excited Mommy-To-Be!

2010-11-06T18:23:00.001-07:00

Matt and I are so excited to be expecting Baby Klasnick #3. Due date- May 9, 2011. After Matt sat on the floor and took a few deep breathes, he was able to tell me that he was thrilled, shocked, not ready and so ready all at once. We feel so lucky to nurture this growing life and add to the love of our family.

Both Luke and Eli were born in Florida so this is the first pregnancy I have had in Colorado. The usual all day nausea and tiredness have passed but the out of breathe and unquenchable thirst are all new to me. I blame it on the altitude- 5280 feet ya know. To my surprise, there is only one free standing birth facility in Colorado but lucky for me it is only 20 minutes from our house. After my first appointment, I feel confident in the midwives and in my ability to have natural, comfortable birth there. My only surprise came in their advice for me to get a first tri-meseter ultrasound. Their main reason being that we needed to pinpoint the due date since Eli's birth went so quickly. I get that and got one. One sweet little heartbeat and a healthy little one~

And today my heart broke.

2010-10-19T13:02:00.001-07:00

The past few weeks this heart of mine has been full of sadness. Welling up with tears that my eyes can no longer cry. Sometimes it just seems unbearable. The feeling of being helpess, not knowing what to do or to say. Loved ones broken down, mother's with heartaches and knowledge that will change their world forever, and friend's struggles.

I have come to know the Matthew's family from a friend in Florida. I have followed their blog and while I have never been able to wrap my arm's around them and pour love into their hearts their story has changed me. Changed my heart. http://thematthewsstory.com/ Today, my heart broke. It just could not handle the sadness.

Oh how I squeeze Luke a little tighter each time I see him and kiss Eli one more time before I lay him down. Grateful, thankful. Each and every prayer said in hopes of bringing peace to hurting hearts and for God's perfect love to surround his children.

And the tears came.

2010-10-01T14:46:00.001-07:00

Last night at about 9:15pm I hear a sniffle and a whimper and a beckoning, "Mom, mom...." barely audible come from Luke and float down the stairs. He has been perfecting his stall tactics lately so I thought this was part of the scheme. Once I got into his room, he collapsed into my arms. Sobbing, tears rolling down his cheeks. "Mommy, the trampoline was in my mouth and it would not let my mouth close." "The swisher was loud and I was scared." "I wanted to get out of the chair and the dentist said I had to sit as still as a statue." "It took so long." "They put medicine on it." "I don't want to go to the dentist."

Wow, a flood of emotions. Turns out this was all tied to his root canal and filling from two weeks ago that he proclaimed was "no biggie". Luke is a thinker and from what I can tell he held in all of these emotions and fear, thinking about them since the visit. The morning before he had come into my bedroom at 5am and asked me when he had to go to the dentist and I thought nothing of it. Oh, poor thing had been carrying this weight all alone.

What a true lesson for me to remember, to really listen to what my child tells me. Maybe I should have been able to sense his fear that morning or brought up the dental visit again a few days after the procedure to make sure he still felt comfortable with what had happened. For Luke, I now know that just because he carries a smile on his face does not mean he is smiling in his heart.

So today we ventured over to the dental office again and he had a "fun" visit. Brushed his teeth, got a prize. They said they would send us a card in 6 months so that we could come back again for a cleaning and Luke replied with, "Sounds good. See you next week." I am hoping we have cleared the air with this one.

3 in 4.

2010-09-30T09:32:00.000-07:00

21 pounds, 2 ounces, Eli's new weight. He is not on the charts just yet but is close. He gained 3 pounds in 4 weeks, great news! We got the results back from the pediatric endocrinologist and it turns out his acid levels are still low but she said that IF he can continue to gain weight she is not as concerned. In two tests, she was able to detect human growth hormone, she found normal fat levels in his fecal specimens and his Vitamin D levels are right where they should be although most of it coming from the sun not his diet. She said she is very pleased with they way everything looks and confirmed with a pediatric nephrologist that the acid levels are not worrisome with the weight gain. Thank you Lord for keeping watch over my beloved son.

So, what did we do? Pretty much stopped feeding him fruits and vegetables. If you give Eli a plate of french fries, chicken nuggets and peas he will eat the peas and beg for more leaving all else for the birds. While I am not completely comfortable and am sure this will not be our lifestyle I am confident it will not hurt him for a few months. Matt asked me a few weeks back to change his diet, cut out the green smoothies, be a bit more lenient with refined sugars and add some meat to his diet. For me it is going to be about finding balance in the coming months with what I feel is a healthy diet for him and what will keep his weight up.

Little peanut.

2010-09-04T20:02:00.001-07:00

Eli always has been a little peanut. When he was born he weighed in at 6 lbs, 12 ounces and 20 1/2 inches long. At his check ups he always fell between the 25th-30th percentile for height and weight. At about a year old his weight started to fall to 20th%, 15%, down to -5%. I could always attribute this to something- him being an early walker and expending lots of energy, to my extended breastfeeding. However, at his 18 month check up he continued to fall further away from the normal growth curve so our pediatrician recommended we get blood work and an urine analysis done on Eli.

I have to say I was shocked when he called me a week later to say that some of the results were abnormal. In my heart of hearts, I felt that he was okay. He is hitting everything other milestone and perfect otherwise. However, two of the numbers need to be looked at further. One is his acid level. Eli's is at 17 and the normal range is 20-32. The second is the growth hormone marker. The normal range is 55-303 and Eli is below 25 (undetectable.) At this point, we are scheduled to see a pediatric endocrinologist middle of the month. My pediatrician and another wonderful friend who is a doctor as well (thank you Clancy) assured me that while these need to be attended to, both are treatable and will be taken care of.

While we are confident Eli will continue to be a thriving, healthy and growing boy it still stirs my heart to know that I can not make this all better for him. But, it is in God's hands and I am grateful this is what he gave us to deal with (as there are other families dealing with far harder issues), grateful for a doctor who cared enough to notice, grateful for a little boy who for some reason does not mind getting pricked and prodded as long as there is a lollipop in hand, and grateful for a husband who keeps my emotions from running rampant.

Eli, thank you dear boy for all of your laughs and giggles.

Summer does a body good- part 2.

2010-08-31T20:39:00.001-07:00

This summer Eli~

1. Was a beach impostor, he could walk the walk but could not talk the talk. He admired from a far or on my hip.

2. Fell in love with the tractor ride.

3. Tore it up on the dance floor.

4. Found a BFF. His cousin, Evelyse.

5. Gave himself a makeover. I knew this day would come. The boy loves to stack, open and play with my make-up. Give him 10 minutes with a tube of lipstick and he has the look of a broadway star.

6. Both laughed and smirked, in true Eli form.

Hello Fall!

Summer does a body good.

2010-08-31T14:43:00.000-07:00

This summer Luke~

1. Perfected his 7th inning stretch song and is ready to belt it out at the big leagues.

2. Became fully potty trained. Oh, I thought this would never happen but with a little luck and free reign to pee off the porch if need be, the kid got motivated.

3. Became a huge fan of the cannon ball and various snorkeling techniques. He is hoping for an air tank.

4. Declares himself to be a surf expert.

5. Had his first trip to the dentist. I thought he might escape my "bad teeth gene" but no can do. Two cavities with a possibility of a baby root canal. He showed self restraint, a positive attitude and willingness to try.

6. Enjoyed lots of special treats on our trip to Florida. I think all the love made up for any ill effects this may have had on his health.

Chi Running.

2010-08-29T20:09:00.000-07:00

I posted about a class I was excited to take in Chi Running. The whole premise is to run or walk with correct form, eliminating any pain or discomfort while increasing endurance and speed. It was great but all the excitement wore off when, for the life of me, I just could not get the technique down. Argh! I was in a pickle because my old running style felt off but I just could not get the hang of the Chi style. Go figure- I relay all the information I learned to Matt. He is such a self learner, goes out and within about a month with no other training, is running about twice as far as he used to with absolutely no pain and an increased time. He has taken to 6-8 miles of steep trail running and comes home enthused and ready to conquer more! So, I will keep at it but for anyone that is curious Matt has seen dramatic results. He is even thinking of signing up for some long trail races.

Summer Love.

2010-08-28T14:30:00.000-07:00

This summer was full of love.

It is amazing how months can seem to pass in an instant when

you hug an old friend fresh off the plane from Seattle,

really talk with your sister,

let yourself listen to music,

take an impromptu trip, something you always talk about and never do,

grow with your husband,

read for the fun of it,

hold sweet Evelyse and swap mommy ideas with your cousin,

welcome to the world Bella knowing how she will forever change your dear friend,

and embrace every moment with your family.

Summer just has a way of doing that, aren't we lucky.

Hats off to another year for my honey.

2010-08-10T18:52:00.000-07:00

A trip to the swim park.

Margaritas and smothered enchiladas.

Feeding the ducks at Wash Park.

Cake and singing on a picnic bench.

Happy Birthday babe, simple days always make the best memories. My love forever.

Rocking it at Red Rocks.

2010-07-27T21:10:00.000-07:00

The infamous Tourneys before their first Red Rock concert- String Cheese Incident. Patchouli in the air, 'Round the Wheel playing, and skydivers with fireworks coming in over head made for an unforgettable show. Thanks for making the road trip to celebrate my 32nd birthday!

First real ball game.

2010-07-10T20:23:00.000-07:00

Luke and Matt went to their first major league baseball game. Lots of smiles,

and wonderment.

Hopefully one of many to come.

4th of July celebration.

2010-07-07T20:37:00.000-07:00

I really would love to be one of those people that just fly by the seat of their pants. But I am not, I always thought it would be fun to just get up one morning and decide to take a trip. With two kiddos in tow I thought that was dreaming the impossible, until Matt decided to go along with me on my whim of thoughts for 4th of July.

Pack the car.

Drive to Estes Park.

Stay at the YMCA.

Have fun!

We sure did even though the weather got very chilly right before fireworks. So we tailgated in the back of the mini-van. Who knew two hours, in the back of a van with a 15 month old, 3 year old, emergency snack pack, blankets, cards and some music could be so fun. At about 8 o'clock Matt mentioned to me that maybe we should turn off the cd player to save the battery, I assured him it would be fine. 10 o'clock rolls around, the car won't start but luckily Matt chases after the last car in the parking lot, a Jeep, who is nice enough to give us a jump. Lesson learned- never listen to your wife's car advice when she knows nothing about cars.

One other important lesson learned this weekend- Monday as we were leaving, the boys decided to hit the playground. After 5 minutes on the tire swing Matt asked Luke if he wanted to get off, of course he did not. I leave and return to find Luke loosing his breakfast in the grass. Poor kiddo, now we know. 2 minute time limit on all tire swing adventures!

Matt's First Tri.

2010-06-28T21:13:00.000-07:00

Never mind that he started a new job and was working 50+ hours a week.

Had to be a weekend warrior with his training.

Was never able to squeeze in the open water swim before the big race.

Had no idea how to transition the day prior.

He still managed to race. Hard.

Have fun.

And secure his own cheering section.

Waiting for him at the 5th mile marker of the run, most other competitors were passing us by with their bodies aching, faces gloomy and tired. Matt turned the corner, his heart was smiling, his legs were briskly running and he ran over to kiss the boys. He felt so alive. It is these moments in life that shape who were are and how we live. How easily he could have said, "I don't have time to do this or I did not train enough" instead this is his experience to own. Forever.

Cloth Diapering....the verdict.

2010-05-18T17:24:00.000-07:00

So, I posted about cloth diapering about a year ago. My final verdict......

I like it.

Much easier than I thought overall. Although I will say that I have learned a few things~

* Using an HE washer is a bit cumbersome, you just might have to double/triple/quadruple wash to get them really clean. It can be done but just takes a bit more effort.

* Once a child has used disposables they may not transition to the cloth. I tried and tried with Luke. Since he was old enough to take them off that is just what would happen. You would think he would use the potty at that point but no such luck.

* No need to even attempt cloth diapers while traveling, moving or using a babysitter. Not worth the headache or grossness.

* They need to be changed one to two times more each day or else a nasty rash can ensue.

So, here is what you need.

1. About 15-20 cloth diapers. I use both the All in One diapers and the One Size diapers by Bum Genius. The All in Ones take a bit longer to dry but the One Size need an insert put into them, pick your battle.

2. About 100 cloth wipes.

3. Some homemade wipe solution. I fill a spray bottle with water and add a drop or two of lavendar oil and/or tree tea oil.

4. A cloth diaper friendly detergent for washing. I have tried several and Charlie's Soap (available online) seems to work the best. Although there is no stain removing agent in it so if I left my diapers an extra day or two too long I do add a squeeze of Bac Out while they soak to help.

5. A wet bag- I have two for the bathroom (one will be in use while the other is getting washed) and a travel wetbag for when we are out and about.

6. A fairly good gag reflux. I am not gonna lie, it can get gross.

As far as washing goes, every 2-3 days I soak the soiled diapers overnight in the washer. I set the water to cold and add some Bac Out. In the morning I wash them on hot, for a large load with one scoop Charlie's Soap and a double rinse with a few drops of lavendar oil. If they are still stinky you can wash them again with a 1/2 baking soda, then another wash with a 1/2 cup vinegar and then a last wash with no soap or anything added. Pop them in the dryer or on the line after. Wa La!

Oh and shockingly enough the cloth diapers have leaked less than disposables even for overnight.

Just look how happy he is! (Eli is a major cuddler........oh how he loves a snuggle!)

Mother's Day

2010-05-17T19:41:00.000-07:00

Being a mother to these boys has been the greatest gift I have ever received. I am grateful.

Florida adventure.

2010-05-07T21:38:00.000-07:00

I went solo with the boys to Florida for some fun! Apparently, I was relaxing so much I forgot to take pictures....here are just a few.......

Oh I wish I had my camera to get a love bird picture of Samantha and her boyfriend, Josh. This was the first time I met him and he is just wonderful, adorable and so sweet. Wish we got to spend more time with them! Hopefully our next trip.

On this trip I learned a few lessons.

~ I (heart) Kristie Serra. She was heading back home to Seattle with her boys the day after we arrived so our only time to meet was for thirty minutes at the airport when we got in. Nothing like a quick hug and chat with the most genuine of hearts.

~ Eli likes the beach as long as he is not wet, sandy, or in the sun. While Jamie was trying to make that happen Luke was turning into Flipper with Travis.

~ Aunt Dana's "spend the night" is like my fond memories of Elitche's Amusement Park as a kid- non stop laughter, 1000 to do in not enough time, more fun than I can imagine and photos to prove it.

~ A house full of love will never be forgotten. Luke walks in to Grams and Pax's house like he owns the place and was just arranging the bunny hutch yesterday. Poor Grams was under the weather but held up like a trooper.

~ I wish Jamie and Travis lived near me.

~My parents are so wonderful (I have actually always known this). They drove three hours to see us. This entailed picking us up, taking us to lunch and then to the airport. They then turned around to head home.

Wonderful trip.

3......yipppeee!

2010-05-06T21:09:00.000-07:00

Luke and Pax share the same birthday (almost), they are a day apart. We were down in Florida for a visit the week prior to their big days and Luke could not have been happier. Cake, singing, presents, and lots of love. These two Klasnick boys love their time together.......

Luke will be the one to carry on the Klasnick name for Matt's family. What an honor, the men of this family are God serving, devoted to their wives and children and the ultimate of providers. Pax had made a promise to himself that when Matt was born he would never turn turn down a request by his son to play ball. After Pax would get off work (he maintained the ball fields at thelocal high schools in Florida- think 100% humidity and 90 degree weather) Matt would be anxious to get out for a catch, each and every time, most everyday of the week those two would be outside tossing a baseball back and forth well into the night. What a great gift to give your grandchild, values that are not spoken but are lived. Commitment, loyalty, a giving and humble heart. As Luke is stepping into his third year as my son I relish the time we spend together. He makes me laugh (loud, full laughs), he asks me questions that are far beyond his years and has a soft, sensitive heart.

Happy Birthday Pax and Luke.

The Bad Habit.

2010-05-05T18:57:00.000-07:00

(The Berenstain Bears boys and my mom walking in Ybor City, FL. I am constantly told how much my brother and Luke look alike. Lucky Luke.)

Growing up my brother, Travis, loved "The Berenstain Bears". He read the books, watched the cartoons and talked about the bear family like he knew them. I found it funny when Luke took to them too. "The Berenstain Bears and The Bad Habit" is our newest. My list of bad habits is long..........I thought I would note a few hoping it would make me accountable to maybe change a few or at least acknowledge them.

1. Late night snacking- usually something sweet. Thanks mom and dad, I know I got this one from you two!

2. Picking my nails- uggh, gross. I go through phases with this one. More stress = less nail.

3. Controlling. My poor husband, I like to have my short nailed hands in everything.

4. Reluctant to try things I could possibly fail at. This is a huge shortcoming.......I have missed out on what could be so many amazing opportunities and life adventures all because of my own insecurity. Umph.

5. Not pondering the past enough to learn from it. I have noticed in blogging that if I go a week or two without a post I just let it go as I prefer to look at what is ahead and not stop to think about what those weeks have taught me or the experiences. I am going to let that one sink in.

(Travis and I at the David Gray concert in Tampa. Travis and David Gray are both amazing!)

One tricked out trike and a Skuut.

2010-04-14T14:50:00.000-07:00

Pedal bikes are a new find for us. They are a beginner's bike without pedals so you "skuut" along. It is suppose to eliminate the need for training wheels as the child is able to learn to balance. I searched for months for a used one but no such luck. I did however find this awesome trike for Eli on Craig's List.

Luke received his Skuut as an early birthday present and is catching on quickly. He is cautiously daring. Sweet boy will be 3 in a few days!

A little rhythm.

2010-04-13T14:45:00.000-07:00

Having fun in the morning.

Amalgam be gone!

2010-04-12T14:12:00.000-07:00

This past week I got all 7 of my Amalgam/Mercury tooth fillings removed and replaced. Usually I love going to the dentist (a little strange, I know) but I was apprehensive about this procedure. I am not a fan of drugs and I had to get a local anesthetic in four areas of my mouth. They also started me on nitrous oxide but within two minutes I started breaking out in a sweat and had it replaced with pure oxygen. Drills, my mouth wired open and 3 hours later, no more toxic mercury in this mouth. Thank goodness.

This is about 1/10 of the metal that the dentist removed. Amazing that years ago (and in some dental practices today) it was common place to fill cavities with a deadly poison. I wonder what we will look back on in 20 years and say, "I can't believe in 2010 we used to ______?" (Drink water with flouride, have health care options that were constitutional, think traditional sunscreen protected us from cancer.) Hmmm.

All the tears......

2010-04-11T13:42:00.000-07:00

over one bunny. The kiddos had never sat on Santa's lap or seen the Easter bunny at the mall and so I can imagine how strange it would be to be plopped on the lap of a gigantic, moving rabbit. However, they survived and had some fun at the community egg hunt after.

I do not do much by way of "dressing" the boys up but this coat and vest was adorable on Luke and brought back so many fun memories of our trip to Pittsburgh that I had to put it on Eli.

We managed to lose all the eggs we found on the egg hunt but that was forgotten when we arrived back home and had our baskets filled. I stuffed a few eggs with dried fruit, a few chocolate chips and one lollipop each~ Luke got an electric toothbrush and Eli received a ball~ they loved them! Matt could not believe how excited they both got, it was adorable.

Now, this was Eli's second lollipop. His first came to him in a mom's moment of desperation at the mall. The look on his face says it all, "How did I score one of these again?"

Spring is here~

I am not Irish....

2010-03-16T20:45:00.000-07:00

but my cousin, Callie McRitchie, is! It was a must we celebrated with her as I have missed so many in the years past. Saturday we went to the parade in downtown Denver. Apparently, it is the biggest parade West of the Mississippi and ever since Luke saw the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade on television he has been asking me to take him to New York. One day I am sure we will go but until then green shamrocks, vintage cars and Irish folk dancers will have to suffice.

It was then off to John's apartment where he and Callie had cooked up the traditional corn beef and cabbage, Guinness bread and pasta salad. Thankfully everyone was in their green attire or Luke was prepared to give them a pinch....lots of practice pinching this week.

Kiss me I am (almost) Irish!

Excuse me...

2010-03-06T18:41:00.001-08:00

"Excuse me mommy. Can you please be patient? I am talking to dad."

- Luke, 2.5 yrs old going on 13 yrs old.

BlackRock = Big Smiles.

2010-03-04T19:19:00.000-08:00

March 1st, that was Matt's official start date at BlackRock. Wahoo! The company has poised itself to be the leader in the marketplace, the team is small but fierce and the manager is phenomenal.

Cheers to new beginnings. We could not feel any luckier.

Half marathon- check!

2010-03-01T19:00:00.000-08:00

Oh, the feeling of accomplishment. What a thrill! I only say this because I never thought I could have run 13.1 miles and felt so good. I am not a runner and prior to my training had only run 6 miles once.

It just goes to show what a good pair of running shoes and proper training can do for a girl. My mom, sister and I all participated. My mom had plans of walking the race but she said there was so much energy she ran the first two miles and finished off running too. I was so proud of her as I watched her cross the finish line! My sister, Jamie, and I ran the entire course together- except for the last .5 mile, she smoked me and finished about 30 seconds ahead. We made a total rookie mistake and had to stop at the first bathroom check point. The line was literally ten minutes so all in all we probably ran the race in a little under 2:30. The day was beautiful, my partners were awesome and I had the best cheering crowd around (thanks Dad!!)

I realized something about myself during this whole process. I always thought I was competitive but really I think I like to just set a goal and achieve it. Whether that puts me in first or last place depends on what I set my mind to achieve. Now I just wonder, what is next......

Our LITTLE guy turns the BIG 1!

2010-02-24T18:39:00.000-08:00

Was it really a year ago that Eli came into our life? It seems like just yesterday yet I can't remember what life was like without his sweet nuzzle into my neck, without his precious smile lighting up my morning, without his crazy hair sweeping over his eyes (we are at 8 haircuts and counting), without his mouth being full of food every waking hour of the day, and without his "grandma bootie" wondering around naked before his bath. Oh, I love you so much.

We woke up this morning and Luke could not wait to bake a cake. He declared himself the official taste tester- Chocolate Buttermilk cake with Cookie and Cream frosting.....yum.

We went swimming at the pool, played pin the tail on the donkey, and ate lots of dessert!

Happy Birthday my sweet Eli!

Homemade Bread- Take 2.

2010-02-22T18:46:00.000-08:00

This is my second attempt at making fresh bread. I milled the flour, mixed it in the Bosch, let it rise, put in a cold oven and while it tasted delicious the consistency was more like a muffin than a loaf of bread. Humpf....any suggestions?

The last long run.

2010-02-22T07:10:00.000-08:00

10 miles.

22 degrees and flurries.

2 hours of Alex Jones on my podcast....

I completed my last long run and am ready for the big race next Sunday!

Out for a visit.

2010-02-21T17:23:00.000-08:00

Last week my parents came out from Florida to see our "new life". What a treat it was to have them here and the kids were thrilled! The weather was wonderful, three days of snow and three days of sun. We had to say goodbye on Valentine's Day....our hearts were broken.

Playing hard with Grammy.

Lots of fun with Pops.

Sledding on the ice skating rink in Evergreen. Pops whipped them all around.

Sweet.